Take Two!

I know this is going to sound like the movie Groundhog Day, but I'm going to start this weight loss journey and I'm going to get myself healthy.  For anyone wondering why I'm making the Groundhog Day reference for this post, check out my first post ever.  Anyways, I'm determined to not just start eating right, but also workout so hard that I look like I dived into a pool fully clothed.

I was asked recently by someone who is helping be a weight loss buddy, if I have an event or anything coming up that I could aim for in regards to a short-term weight loss goal.  This is a good question as often these said events (weddings, reunions, vacations, etc.) do encourage people to want to really push themselves to lose weight by a certain date; however, since I have nothing coming up to give me a deadline, I'm just going to do this at whatever pace happens to work for me.  Whether that's fast or slow.  Faster is better because I'd love to see results quickly, but I'll take slow if it means lasting weight loss and the opportunity to get healthy.

With that said, let me get to the deep part of my post (so far I always seem to have one of those).  Being fat obese overweight fluffy...yes...fluffy, isn't just something that affects my self-esteem.  For me, I want to minimize my risk of all those shitty and scary health problems that often come with being "fluffy".  I already have high blood pressure that is currently under control with medications, but I would prefer not to add any other health issues to that list.  I want to be able to chase my energetic toddlers around without being short of breath or having my back kill me because my sciatica has kicked into full swing.  I want to enjoy being active and look forward to doing stuff that doesn't involve vegging out on the couch.  I also want to be respected and I feel like people that are as "fluffy" as myself aren't respected as much as someone much more slender.  How do I figure this to be the case you may wonder?  Well, often if you look like you don't take care of yourself, then you probably don't love yourself.  If you don't appear to love yourself, then you likely don't respect yourself.  So, if you don't respect yourself, why should anyone else respect you?  Maybe I'm over-thinking it, but it is what I believe to be the case.  I mean, I know that I don't love or respect myself as much as I should.  If I could stick with this goal to lose weight and get healthy, then I see my self love and respect growing.  Not because I'm going in the direction of what society feels women should look like, but because I will see myself succeeding towards as goal that's important to me.

I also see my depression and anxiety improving.  When I see myself succeeding in making myself a better person physically, then I will because happier which will then improve my overall mood.  This improvement won't just be great for myself, but it will also improve the relationships I have with my family.  My husband and kids will see me happier and that will bring a happier vibe around my house.  I know from personal experience that your mood and attitude can directly affect the people around you, so I want to be sure my family isn't affected by my negative mood.  I want improved attitudes all around.

I know this sounds like a long ass train of thought on how me simply dieting and exercising can affect my whole family, but I wholeheartedly believe in the fact that one person's mood can affect everyone around them.  With that said, September 1st is the big day.  DE (Diet & Exercise) Day!  I will plan to document and take pics to help keep me on track as I believe that seeing the results as they come will keep me motivated.  I don't know how public I will make that documentation since I'm quite embarrassed about my starting point and current stats, but I will think about it.  Maybe having the people I know (and don't know) see my progress might help encourage me to keep going.  We'll see.  For sure though, I will at the very least be tracking and documenting behind the scenes.  So, in just under 2 weeks, I will get this weight loss journey off the ground.  Let the sweat roll!